Outfit details: Purse: Hamilton Bag- Michael Kors (gift)// Tank top: Mossimo (Target) (yard sale find 25 cents)/?Pants: Style & Co. (yard sale find for 25 cents)//Ankle Sandalls: C. Label (Plato’s Closet)//Fedora: Virtis (Plato’s Closet).
I had several possible nonsense titles for this post, like ‘Tip of the iceberg” or “Michael Jackson” haha! But then I put in my Mat Kearney Black and White cd today and sang my heart out. I just love him…LOVE him. The song I sang was CLoser to Love, so it was only appropriate that I deem the title post after this song. If you haven’t heard of Mat Kearney or maybe heard his songs and want to check him out go here. I dream of seeing him live again, it’s been since he first began years ago, and boy has he grown in the charts and even gone to secular radio (which is good and bad in my opinion, since he started out all Christian music/label). I felt the fedora hat was very Mat Kearney-ish too.
I wore this outfit for a “me” date to the local library for a “Busy Bags” DIY make and take session. I left the library with about 8 or more made DIY educational learning crafts that I made and even implemented already with Nevaeh and Xander. With school ending in about two weeks I needed more things other than workbooks and notebooks for Nevaeh to use to continue the wheels in her brain for the summer. I shall do a busy bag post or several coming up (linking up the original Pinterest sites of course for your reference).
My hubby and I came up with a plan today to begin a more routine day for all the kids starting once Nevaeh gets out of school. His focus is on gross motor times and mine is educational/field trips/daily trips or activities. So he has left me to the “lesson planning.” I am going to feel like a full time teacher again for sure. Any wisdom or ideas? It’s hard to plan around three babies nap times but for Nevaeh in general those times will be quiet times spent in her room or in one area of the house working quietly.
Now for the honesty stuff. This past week has been a roller coaster. have had feelings of ineptness, putting myself down, stress. I was feeling like a terrible mom and wife. I guess there were little comments my husband made that made me think I should have known better or completed but I held on to those thoughts and couldn’t stop entertaining them as “I am dumb or worthless” even though I knew that wasn’t his intent. I carried some hurt (funny how we hurt our own selves sometimes) until the breaking point when one of my twins (Max) ripped my husbands Bible (well a few pages). My hubby was forgiving and knew he shouldn’t have left it at reach of the babies (Max loves to tear paper), but I couldn’t forgive myself for a bit until I spent some time with God and getting more assurance from my hubby that it was ok. I believe things are better (I know it has today) so my “me” time yesterday was much needed.